Ever been in a mad search for a quick solution? Maybe you’ve wanted to lose 10 pounds in a week, maybe you need some help with cellulite right before the big swimsuit debut. Or maybe you need some help with healing and understanding your emotions and you’re just so tired of the way you feel and you turn to drinking or something else just to avoid the problem altogether. Yeah, I think we’ve all been there one way or another in search of a quick fix.
I always wanted a quick fix when it came to healing and my emotions. But I didn’t think that was such a thing for me. I knew that healing from my past was a slow and not so pretty process. I knew it would take time and I knew I had to work through everything and go through the emotions and motions. I wasn’t allowed to avoid or ditch the problems or act like the problems didn’t exist. Plus being pregnant! (Want to read more on my prego journey? Read: Why Being Pregnant has Turned My World Upside Down and One of the Most Important Lessons I’ve Learned in My Life.) There wasn’t an option for drinks to escape. I had to deal with everything head on and all the emotions were raw and real. Nothing was masking what was going. That’s for sure.
To give you a quick back story, in the first trimester I decided to start healing with a spiritual coach, as I like to call her, Johanna Burkhardt. She has been helping me with shadow work and so much more. It truly has been life changing. And it has truly helped me with the breakup between me and the father of my child. Which devastated me. I had emotional breakdowns for a week. And I was unable to let go of the anger I had for my ex especially while being pregnant and now alone. Without this work I do believe I would still carry a lot of anger and hostility towards him. To say the least, it’s improved drastically.
During one of our calls together, I had mentioned some childhood and adult sexual abuse. And she mentioned doing something called Timeline Therapy. And I was open to doing anything. Because in the last few weeks of this call I was having flashbacks, from my childhood, and fears of what could happen. Especially since the last ultrasound had signs of the baby being a girl. I was nervous and scared and I wasn’t sure how things were going to be since my ex and I weren’t together. I knew I was projecting fears on to him. And I was reading the book When Survivors Give Birth I really started to connect the dots to my present and past. So I was open to doing this thing called Timeline Therapy. As I recall she told me it’s like hypnosis but not. And your higher self and subconscious lead you to your past so you’re able to let go of your past.
Honestly, I had no idea what any of that actually meant. But I was open to it. I wanted a solution. I was tired of having emotional rollercoasters every day. Not sure how I was affecting my child. Before I move on, let me share what Timeline Therapy actually is.
WHAT IS TIMELINE THERAPY
Time Line Therapy (TLT) is a powerful therapeutic process that has evolved from hypnosis and NLP, developed by Tad James, Ph.D. in the 1980s. It was developed by applying a therapeutic process to the concept that we store our memories in a linear manner in an internal memory storage system. According to Google.
HOW I WOULD DESCRIBE IT
Hypnosis into the past where your higher self and subconscious mind is being called upon to help you release the past.
MEETING THE THERAPIST
A couple of days after Johanna mentioned the session she introduced me to Chantelle Neufeld. We started chatting. Just some chit chat and other things. Eventually we started talking about the session. She wanted me to focus on one emotion. And she made me aware that we go into a timeline of before or after the womb. Which I thought was interesting.
The next day we chatted over video through Facebook chat. She went over the process and explained! She made me feel comfortable and at ease with the session. And I was excited for the session. Mind you, I had no idea what to expect and questioned whether or not this would work. I wasn’t sure what was really going to happen even though she explained the process. And I started to notice that I was holding on to a fear. A fear of letting go of the “old” Angela. Letting go of things and a life I was comfortable living. Something in me knew this was going to change my life though. How- I was unsure. (To let go of the fear, I journaled about it.)
TUESDAY- SESSION DAY
That day I remember waking up angry with looping thoughts about my ex. I was having such a hard time. I couldn’t let go of it. And I when I arrived to my job things didn’t get any better. So I took the time to journal about it. I was hoping this would help me release some of the anger. But I still couldn’t let anything go. I text Johanna to get some input because I knew I was gonna go crazy! And right as I text her I heard from ex. And it turned into a huge text battle. Even though I put the warning out there that I was angry. It was like a test. And I failed miserably! How do they always know when to text?! LOL! Seriously! Eventually everything calmed down. And things got better.
But I started to have anxiety before the session. So much so that I did a quick 5-minute meditation to help me calm down. And it did help me a little bit.
DURING THE SESSION
I noticed during the session when I was supposed to start to calm down and relax my mind was fighting it. It was hard for me to relax and let go. It did take awhile. During the session we went back to my timeline. And we went back into my past lives. I thought it was weird that we had gone there and not to the abuse. But we went exactly to where my higher self-lead us. Because the emotion I picked was sadness. So we went back to my past life and where I carried the sadness. I had associated this sadness with my current situation. It was so strange to me. But it was exactly what was supposed to happen.
It was as if I was having an out of body experience. I didn’t even understand how I was responding to the questions. I just was! My conscious self was not in control!
When I woke up from the session I felt tired and drained emotionally. I was unsure of how I felt. I was unsure of what exactly happened. What I did know is that I felt like I had never been sad before. And I had let go a lot of anger. And even the fight I had with my ex earlier had disappeared. It was blur. Even when I went to dinner with him that night I didn’t carry the anger. It was truly amazing to me. I felt like a different person. Don’t get me wrong. It’s not like all the sad sh*t disappeared. It just held a different meaning. It was something that happened. In the past. It had a learning lesson. It was and still is amazing how quickly those events changed for me.
THE NEXT DAY
When I woke up the next day I didn’t have any crazy looping thoughts. I wasn’t sad about anything anymore. I had really felt a release. I did journal to process everything but I had really let go of the pain that I had carried. I didn’t feel nearly as responsible for everything. I felt lighter as if a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. It was truly amazing. It was like a quick fix healing session. I was still trying to wrap my head around how I felt so good so easily but I stayed away from analyzing it.
The healing session truly helped me let go of sadness. And has made it so much easier to deal with my ex and being single while I’m pregnant. It really helped me see things in another light. How? I don’t quite understand; but it did work.
And if you’re searching for something to help with any pain that you might carry, help you heal more, or whatever the case may be, this is the way to go. It may call for a few sessions but it certainly helps you let go of the past and move to the present no matter your circumstances. No matter what you’ve been through.
And I am happy to say this has helped me a great deal and I would recommend Timeline Therapy to anyone searching for something that can help them in a healthy positive manner.
And if you have questions, or a story to share, or can relate, leave a comment below! Let’s connect! I would love to hear from you.