How Journaling Changed My Life-It can Change Yours too!
In the last few years of my life, I’ve needed an outlet. I needed something I could get all my emotions and words and situations in one place. Where I wasn’t judged or worried about anything said. I remembered as a child I wrote in a diary for a long time and stopped. I turned to it again. I’m glad I did.
If you’ve been through a lot in your life, some things come up and you really need a healthy place to unload. Journaling is totally the answer because it’s safe, in one place and truly helps you in major ways. I didn’t pick the habit back up until about 4 years ago. I had just come out of a self-destructive path that lead into a deep depression… I was on a suicidal path. I decided to change all of it. There’s a little more to it than that, if you’re interested, you can read about it in this blog.) I wrote in my journal daily. About things that were happening in my day. Feelings and thoughts, I was having. I started to asked myself all the whys I could think of. Those whys lead me to my past… the healing started
Still this day, I journal about everything! The more I use my journal the more I heal. The more I become I aware. The more peaceful I become. Journaling has seriously changed my life.
I hope these will inspire you to pick up a journal and start writing. Especially if you feel like you have nothing else.
I can organize my thoughts and feelings. Everything can be written down in my journal. No matter how pissed I am. No matter what I am thinking about who. I can write it all down. In one place without judgement. My words were safe.
I learned to accept my emotions through journaling. If you lived in a similar household as I did, having emotions was unacceptable. I learned to hide emotions. Like a switch. When people say you can’t just turn emotions off- that was not the case for me. I could immediately turn emotions off. And not go back to it. I learned how unhealthy it was (almost 20 years later). I started to let my feelings go. I would just let those bad boys run wild. And get the best of me. Then I would feel stupid for having certain emotions. I would think I was weak for having emotions etc. I learned having emotions was okay and accepting my emotions helped me move through them faster. Without getting all those emotions out on paper I would hold onto them. Journaling helped me work through them faster. (If you want more on accepting your emotions, check out this blog! It’s a 3 step guide I learned and use.)
I started to face my past. This one of the hardest things I did in journaling. I really did start moving through my past through journaling. I finally grieved the death of my step-father. I finally let go of some bad relationships. All kinds of traumatic stuff. I remember crying through a lot of my entries from a few years ago because I suppressed so many feelings I was just learning to bring up. Sometimes it was hard but totally worth it. I would feel so free the next day. (If you want more on dealing with your past check this blog out. If you want journal prompts to help you face the past, check out this blog.)
I started working through my triggers. No one really tells you that triggers are emotions on steroids. They really are just things from your past waiting for you to heal. Yes! I know. It’s true. It took me awhile to accept that one too. With journaling I worked through the emotion of the trigger and learned it was something from my past I had not let go of. I hadn’t quite healed. I would work through it and embrace it. Eventually to the point where triggers weren’t running my life anymore. I wasn’t flying off the handle every chance I had. Especially with being pregnant. Especially when my ex had told me someone else could nurse our child. I was so triggered. I usually would have reacted. In fact, I’m pretty sure I would have smashed his head in the table we were sitting at. But I didn’t. I think I would have done that, because that was my first thought. Luckily, I didn’t react and went home and wrote about it. Then let my OBGYN handle it a couple weeks later. I have really learned a lot about my triggers and how to work through them and heal them. (If you want more on dealing with triggers, you can check this blog out.)
I started healing and recovering from childhood sexual abuse. There was some extra help with healing- you can read here. But really, I was seriously able to work through some of my flashbacks, some of my fears, some of problems that were really brought on through this abuse. A lot of my problems as a young adult was poor self-worth and shame. Which, of course, was a result of being abused. If I hadn’t gotten pregnant I wouldn’t have worked through any of it. (If you want the back story on my pregnancy you can read it here.) I also started writing forgiveness stories, wrote about telling my loved ones. Wrote about anything that was related to my abuse. It really started to help me recover. Don’t get me wrong, I am still working through healing and recovering but I am much better now than I was a few years ago. And if you want blogs specifically on this stuff click these links. Recovery and Healing.
Journaling is truly amazing. It really does help you clear out some of the BS we harbor in our lives. And if I didn’t go back to journaling, I am not sure I would be here now. Journaling is something that can help, help you heal and help you deal. Whether you just write about your day or deep dive into its possibilities like I did. Journaling truly is a great therapy.
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