AsFreeAsYouSee.com is a virtual center with the mission of empowering, inspiring, and supporting women all over the planet to let go of their past and beautifully transform into the present.
We believe positive change is possible and there is no better time like the present to do so.
But sometimes change is hard and one great rollercoaster of a journey.
Ever felt like any of these…
No matter how much you achieve there is still something missing?
No matter how much you might seem like you have “it” all together, on the inside you’re screaming save me?
Always feel like you’re searching for the next big thing?
You tell yourself things that are destructive and could possibly institutionalize you?
You’ve buried all your emotions from the past in fear you might feel that exact same way today?
You have uncontrollable anger and outburst towards people and situations? And you can’t explain why? And if you can explain why, you’re pretty sure it’s just a cover?
You can’t seem to let go of the past and have a hard time forgiving people and yourself?
You can’t look at yourself in the mirror without saying anything negative?
You procrastinate because of doubt and fear?
You make excuses about why you haven’t taken care of yourself in awhile?
Depression and anxiety are immediate go to emotions?
You want to make positive changes and have no idea what to do?
You’re sick of the drama?
You’re sick of not feeling like you’re enough?
You’re sick of feeling like you don’t know who you are anymore?
You’re sick of the self-sabotage?
You’re sick of attracting and being in the wrong friendships? Sick of attracting and being with the wrong partner?
All you want is peace and freedom within yourself but what does that even mean? And is that possible?
If you have felt this way, it’s okay. It’s completely normal.
The reality is…
Being a woman with a tough past that still lingers over everything is hard to deal with. Most of time you hate yourself for allowing those past behaviors and choices but you wish you could go back there to relive all the best moments. Even though there is so much pain from the past the good moments were your best moments. Although you might not live that way or do those things anymore the numb autopilot feeling is old and causes more downs than ups. And it’s like no matter what you do to try to change nothing ever truly happens. Because you’re still looking for “it”.
I believe we have felt like this before- even if we can’t quite explain it or understand it.
The journey of change isn’t quite so beautiful as some like to portray that it is. It’s a battle that causes a lot of questions, a lot of emotions, and a lot of uncertainty. And a lot of kicking our feet, stomping the ground and screaming at the top of our lungs wishing we didn’t decide to do this in the first place.
And this is how AsFreeAsYouSee.com can help you get past those fits to a more beautiful state…
Videos: On topics that get asked by you and others with their struggles on their change journey.
Blogs: Published regularly with how tos, answers to struggles, tips and tricks, things to try, and so much more.
Masterclasses: Pre-recorded classes to help you with major struggles like forgiveness and recovering from sexual abuse.
One pagers: Printables to help you get through rough days, on track, and so much more.
Workbooks: To help you get a deeper dive and more engaged with your journey of change.
E-books: To provide in-depth information on truly making changes.
Book Reviews: To provide outside resources and more information to help you through change all in one spot.
Facebook Page: Tidbits of inspiration and positivity to feel your feed.
Coming Soon: Courses, Facebook Community/group, Membership, physical products (journals, mugs etc.)
In the midst of 2015, to anyone on the outside I was successful. I had just earned my 3rd promotion, within 3 years, at a local hospital, bought a house, and was about to finish my degree.
But I was miserable. I was in emotional, mental, and spiritual turmoil. I couldn’t sustain a stable healthy relationship with myself let alone others.
The rock bottom…
I had been slowly moving into a depression that I was Oh so familiar with. But this time it was terribly different. Everything from my past was being brought to the surface even though I thought I had moved on. And I was attempting to hide my problems with drinking and partying which it only made it worse. By that time I had been working on almost 5 years of self-destructive behaviors and being with people that only influenced it. The whole time thinking my emotions, anger, and desperate- for- attention- attitude was a direct connection to the grieving process. (I had lost my step-father in 2011.) Little did I know at the time, the problems started way, way before that. And everything was finally coming to surface as I was hitting rock bottom. I was an autopilot zombie and if I hadn’t lost my last house key, I am not sure much would have changed.
Finally after losing the key and an “alter ego” weekend I knew one of two things. One- I was going to put myself into a situation I wasn’t going to be able to get out of and get killed. Two- I was going to kill myself. I knew something had to change. I had finally had enough and that’s when changing and healing had become my obsession. Little did I realize changing was something I had always done (like losing 100 pounds, recovering from a divorce) but I had become more conscious about my choices and what I was doing.
The beginning of everything…
I wrote in a journal about everything that was making me upset, angry, sad and so on. I had learned to move past the tragic death of my step-father, forgive myself for all the heartache I had caused myself, repaired and built beautifully genuine relationships with friends and family. Learned to set boundaries with men and stop getting involved in emotional, mental and sexually abusive situations with them. And developed a strong understanding of myself, dived into the self-development world, and tapped into the passion I had for transforming.
And the beautiful transformation…
And after a year of angeladawn.co I wasn’t sure of the direction of my online presence and intentions. Then a thought appeared. I let it go. After the utter failure of my first product launch (in my eyes- a great learning experience) the thought appeared again. And I immediately took action in purchasing the domain name and AsFreeAsYouSee.com was born.
A place to help guide and support a community of women through the uphill battle of letting go of the past and living in the present and having faith in the future. Making it my personal mission to help change the world one woman a time.